When God feels far away39 stories

When God feels far away

For the days you're not sure he's there, or not sure of anything.

How long? · No neat answers · Not sure it's true · Where he turned up · What he said back · Hanging on

How Story is made

1How long?

People in the Bible said this to God, out loud, and it stayed in the book.

David@david

How long, LORD? Are you going to forget me for ever? How long are you going to hide your face? How long do I carry this, sad every single day?

David@david

Replying to @david

Still trusting your love, though. Still going to sing.

Asaph@asaph

Up all night with it. Will the Lord reject us for ever? Has his love run out? Has God forgotten how to be kind?

Asaph@asaph

Replying to @asaph

So I'm going to remember what he did. All of it.

Job@job

If only I knew where to find him. I’d go right up to where he sits and lay out my case.

Job@job

Replying to @job

I go east, he isn’t there. West, and I can’t find him. But he knows the way I’ve taken. When he’s tested me, I’ll come out like gold.

The sons of Korah@sonsofkorah

As a deer pants for streams of water, that's how I long for you, God. When can I go and stand in front of him?

The sons of Korah@sonsofkorah

Replying to @sonsofkorah

Tears are all I've had to eat, day and night. And people keep asking, “So where's your God?”

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Habakkuk@habakkuk

How long, LORD? I keep shouting for help and you don’t listen. I keep crying “Violence!” and you don’t save anyone. Why make me watch all this? Fighting everywhere. The law’s gone limp, and justice never wins.

Habakkuk@habakkuk

Replying to @habakkuk

He answered. Look round at the nations and be amazed, he said. I’m doing something in your days you wouldn’t believe even if you were told. I’m raising up the Babylonians.

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Simon Peter@simonpeter · Lake Galilee

Storm on the lake. Waves coming over the side. Boat filling up. And he’s in the back, asleep on a cushion. Honestly.

Simon Peter@simonpeter

Replying to @simonpeter

We woke him. Don’t you care that we’re drowning? He told the wind off, said to the sea, “Quiet. Be still.” Dead calm. Then asked why we were so afraid.

2No neat answers

Not every prayer here ends on a high note. Some of them just end.

David@david

My God, my God, why have you abandoned me? I cry out all day and you don't answer. All night too.

David@david

Replying to @david

They look at me and laugh. If he trusts the LORD so much, they say, let the LORD rescue him. They've pierced my hands and my feet. They're throwing dice for my clothes.

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Jeremiah@jeremiah

You tricked me, LORD, and I let myself be tricked. You were stronger than me. Now I’m a joke all day long. Everyone makes fun of me.

Jeremiah@jeremiah

Replying to @jeremiah

But if I say I’ll never mention him again, never speak in his name, it’s like a fire shut up in my bones. I’m worn out holding it in. I can’t.

Asaph@asaph

Honest post. I nearly lost my footing. I was jealous of arrogant people, watching them do well. Not a care in the world, and getting richer.

Asaph@asaph

Replying to @asaph

Kept my heart clean for nothing, then?

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Elijah@elijah.tishbite · Wilderness south of Beersheba

Ran for my life. Left my servant in Beersheba and walked a day out into the desert. Sat down under a broom bush. I’ve had enough, LORD. Take my life. I’m no better than my ancestors.

Elijah@elijah.tishbite

Replying to @elijah.tishbite

Fell asleep. Something touched me: an angel. Get up and eat. By my head, bread baked on hot coals and a jar of water. Ate, lay down again. Again: get up and eat, or the journey will be too much for you. That food kept me going forty days and forty nights, all the way to Horeb, the mountain of God.

Heman the Ezrahite@heman.ezrahite

Day and night I cry out to you, LORD. My life is close to the grave. You've taken my friends away. Darkness is my closest friend.

Heman the Ezrahite@heman.ezrahite

Replying to @heman.ezrahite

That's where it ends. No turn this time. I still prayed it to you.

The Teacher@theteacher

He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has put eternity in our hearts. And we still can’t work out what God is doing from beginning to end.

Mary Magdalene@marymagdalene · Golgotha

Three o’clock. He cried out, so loud. Eloi, Eloi, lema sabachthani? My God, my God, why have you abandoned me?

Replying to @marymagdalene

He’s calling Elijah. Someone ran and put a sponge of sour wine on a stick to give him a drink. The rest said: leave him. Let’s see if Elijah comes to save him.

3Not sure it's true

Even the people closest to it had their doubts, and said so.

Thomas@thomasthetwin

I wasn't there when he came. Now they keep telling me they've seen the Lord. Not believing it till I see the nail marks in his hands and put my hand into his side.

The believers@thebelievers

Replying to @thomasthetwin

We're not making it up, Thomas. We've seen the Lord.

A father@helpmyunbelief

Asked Jesus to help my son if he could. He threw it straight back: “If you can?” Said anything is possible for someone who believes. I cried out: I believe. Help me with my unbelief.

A father@helpmyunbelief

Replying to @helpmyunbelief

The spirit left. My boy lay so still people said he was dead. Jesus took his hand and lifted him up.

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John’s disciples@johnsdisciples

John sent us from prison with one question: are you the one who was to come, or should we expect someone else?

John’s disciples@johnsdisciples

Replying to @johnsdisciples

His answer: go and tell John what you see. The blind see, the lame walk, the dead are raised, the poor hear good news.

Sarah@sarah · Mamre

I laughed to myself. Me? Worn out as I am, and my husband this old?

Moses@moses · MamreThey ask where his wife is. In the tent, he says. Then one of them, and this is the LORD himself, says that this time next year Sarah will have a son. Sarah is listening at the tent door behind him.
Sarah@sarah

Replying to @sarah

He asked why I laughed. Is anything too hard for the LORD? I got scared and said I didn’t laugh. He said no, I did.

Gideon son of Joash@gideon · Ophrah

Threshing wheat in a winepress so the Midianites won't see. A stranger under our oak says: “The LORD is with you, mighty warrior.” Me?

Replying to @gideon

Asked him: if the LORD is with us, why has all this happened? My clan is the weakest in Manasseh and I'm the least in my family. He just said he'd be with me.

Cleopas@cleopas · The road to Emmaus

Walking home to Emmaus this afternoon. Some of the women say they went to the tomb early, found it empty, and saw angels who said he's alive. A few of ours went and checked. Empty, just like they said. But him they didn't see.

Joanna@joannaMary Magdalene, Mary the mother of James, me and the rest of us told the apostles everything. They thought we were talking nonsense.
Cleopas@cleopas · The road to Emmaus

Replying to @cleopas

Then a stranger falls in with us and asks what we're talking about. We just stopped. You could see it on our faces. Are you the only visitor in Jerusalem who doesn't know? Jesus of Nazareth. We had hoped he was the one who'd set Israel free. And now it's the third day.

Matthew@matthew · A mountain in Galilee

The eleven of us met him on the mountain in Galilee. We worshipped him. Some of us still doubted. I’m not going to pretend otherwise.

4Where he turned up

Often not how they expected. Sometimes they only saw it afterwards.

Thomas@thomasthetwin

Same house. Doors locked again. And he’s here. He said to me: put your finger here, look at my hands. Put your hand in my side. Stop doubting and believe.

Thomas@thomasthetwinEveryone’s telling me they’ve seen the Lord. Unless I see the nail marks in his hands and put my hand into his side, I won’t believe it.
Thomas@thomasthetwin

Replying to @thomasthetwin

My Lord and my God.

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Simon Peter@simonpeter · Sea of Galilee

Middle of the night, and he comes walking to us across the lake. We thought it was a ghost. “It’s me. Don’t be afraid.” So I said, if it’s you, tell me to come. He said, “Come.” I got out of the boat.

Simon Peter@simonpeter

Replying to @simonpeter

And I walked. On the water. Honestly. Then I saw the wind and started to sink. Shouted for him to save me. He grabbed me. Asked why I doubted. Such little faith.

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Cleopas@cleopas

Got to the village and he acted like he was going on further. We said stay with us, it’s nearly evening. At the table he took the bread, thanked God, broke it, and gave it to us. And we saw. It was him. And he was gone.

Replying to @cleopas

Weren’t our hearts burning the whole time he was talking to us on the road?

Elijah@elijah.tishbite · Mount Horeb

He told me to go and stand on the mountain, because the LORD was about to pass by. A wind that tore the mountains and smashed the rocks. The LORD wasn’t in the wind. Then an earthquake. He wasn’t in the earthquake. Then a fire. He wasn’t in the fire. And after the fire, a still, small voice. I wrapped my face in my cloak and went and stood at the mouth of the cave.

Elijah@elijah.tishbite

Replying to @elijah.tishbite

Same question. Same answer from me. He’s sending me back: anoint Hazael king of Aram, Jehu king of Israel, and Elisha son of Shaphat to be prophet after me. And it turns out I’m not the only one left. He’s kept seven thousand in Israel who’ve never bowed to Baal.

Jacob@jacob · Bethel

The LORD is in this place, and I had no idea.

Moses@moses

Replying to @jacob

Then Jacob makes a vow, and it’s very Jacob. If God stays with me, feeds me, clothes me and gets me home safe, then the LORD will be my God. And he’ll get a tenth.

Ten chapters, and God isn’t named once. A queen in the right place, a sleepless night, a book read out at the right page, a gallows built for the wrong man. Make of that what you will.

John@johnzebedee

Jesus wept.

5What he said back

An exile in Babylon@exile.babylon

The LORD has abandoned me. The Lord has forgotten me.

Isaiah@isaiah

Replying to @exile.babylon

Can a mother forget the baby at her breast? Stop caring for the child she carried? Even if she could, he won’t forget you. He’s written you on the palms of his hands.

An exile in Babylon@exile.babylon

My way is hidden from the LORD. My God doesn’t see what’s happening to me.

Isaiah@isaiah

Replying to @exile.babylon

Don’t you know? Haven’t you heard? The LORD is the everlasting God. He made the ends of the earth. He never gets tired. He gives strength to people who are worn out. Even the young get tired and trip and fall. But those who wait for the LORD will get their strength back. They’ll rise up on wings like eagles. They’ll run and not get tired. They’ll walk and not faint.

David@david

Where could I go from your Spirit? If I go up to heaven, you're there. If I lie down in the depths, you're there. If I fly off on the wings of the dawn to the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me.

Isaiah@isaiah

He made you. He’s bought you back. Don’t be afraid. He’s called you by name: you’re his. When you go through deep water, he’ll be with you. The rivers won’t sweep you away. Walk through the fire and you won’t get burnt.

Paul@paul

What can separate us from the love of Christ? Trouble? Hardship? Persecution? Hunger? Danger? The sword? No. I’m convinced: not death, not life, not angels, not rulers, not what’s happening now, not what’s coming, not any power, not height, not depth, not anything else in all creation can separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Moses@moses

Be strong and brave. Don’t be afraid. The LORD your God goes with you. He will never leave you or abandon you.

Jesus@jesus · A mountain in Galilee

Go and make disciples of all nations, baptising them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit. And I’m with you always, right to the very end of the age.

6Hanging on

Not certainty. Just not letting go.

Simon Peter@simonpeter

He asked if we wanted to leave too. Where else would we go? He has the words of eternal life.

Habakkuk@habakkuk

Even if the fig tree doesn’t blossom and there are no grapes on the vine. Even if the olive crop fails and the fields grow nothing. Even if the sheep pens are empty and there are no cattle in the stalls. I will still be glad in the LORD. I will still rejoice in the God who saves me.

Habakkuk@habakkuk

Replying to @habakkuk

The Lord GOD is my strength. He makes my feet like a deer’s, and he lets me walk on the heights.

Martha@marthaofbethany

Went out to meet him on the road. First thing I said: Lord, if you’d been here, my brother wouldn’t have died. But I know that even now, God will give you whatever you ask him.

Martha@marthaofbethany

Replying to @marthaofbethany

He said my brother will rise again. I said I know he will. At the resurrection, on the last day.

Job@job

I know you can do anything. I talked about things I didn’t understand. Things too wonderful for me. I’d heard about you. Now I’ve seen you with my own eyes.

Job@jobI wish my words were written down. Carved in rock, for ever. I know that my Redeemer lives, and in the end he will stand on the earth. Even after my skin has been destroyed, I will see God. With my own eyes. I long for it so much.
Job@job

Replying to @job

So I despise myself, and I’m turning back to you, here in the dust and ashes.

David@david

Crying might last the night, but joy comes in the morning.

David@david

Replying to @david

You turned my mourning into dancing.

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